Current mood:	okay
Current music:	coldcut

velvet
it seems like many dotcoms here in NYC are getting cautious, especially toward companies they haven't worked with before. the meetings aren't going as well as I would want, people are more worried about what sort of safety precautions there are if our technology fails, and not interested in the wonderful new technology. basicly they are not interested, necessarily, in being first to market, in innovating anymore, and are more concerned with covering their asses. i get so mad that so many dotcoms failed this summer, it makes me sick, they give everyone involved a bad name. anyway, but i did my best, and i managed to please my people enough, they are well aware of the climate out here now, and if i just get enough contacts, that will suffice for now, until after the new year and people start to get some balls again. so bela and i went out to eat at this pub, the beer here, even the good beer is not so good, they are all up on the micro-brew but frankly to me it tastes like sugar water or something, not very good. but it was better than some wine and cheese bar i was dragged to the other night called Von, I don't like places like that. So, Bela and I had a nice chat about our lives again, she is starting to talk to me more, and i see she is a very hard sort of girl, blunt, but also with a sensitive streak, which is very suited to me i think. she also doesn't need to talk about herself all the time like susanna, that girl and i were always competing for airtime, this bela knows how to listen. i told her about some things that were sort of private i suppose because i haven't really had anyone to talk to about things in a while, we sat on the roof of her apartment and talked while watching the traffic bump and grind below. then we did the same, ha! her apartment is something like out of a fairytale, one with witches, very strange, she had this huge velvet wall hanging on her exposed brick south wall of this exotic lady and her cat, it reminded me of art nouveau style, like what I see in Barcelona, but they never make that kind of style of thing on black velvet I don't think. In any case, it was not too shabby, a little moody, but okay, I checked her drug cabinet like I always do with girls because of Helena, you can never be too sure, is my attitude about that type of thing. Also the girl's job-- I am still unclear about it and thought it might be drugs-- she spends like crazy and she does not talk about her work, so I am having my suspicions.

So we made love then, she had this funny mirror on the ceiling I felt like I was in some porno, which I liked of course, she smelled like coconut oil, it was quite pleasing, although I could see her cat watched during the ceremony, and that is always distracting.